Stupid stuff I have to get over…

The NaBloPoMo post that I missed on Friday- what’s the stupidest thing you and your partner ever fought over?

My husband and I have a pretty good marriage -it’s not always easy but it’s also not rocket science. And I must admit, key to our relationship is my husband’s easy going nature. He’s pretty laid back about most things, while I tend to be highly type triple A personality. Which means I get indignant about stupid stuff on a fairly regular basis.

The most recent was about laundry. The boy has been growing so much that I don’t even risk putting his stuff in the dryer anymore. One of his flannel shirts was accidently thrown in and shrunk -not beyond repair, mind you, as thanks to the wonder that is YouTube I found a tutorial using hair conditioner that managed to stretch it back out. Needless to say I wasn’t about to do that again.

Now I will take the boy’s stuff and lay it to dry while putting others’ in the dryer. 

On Sunday, my husband, thinking that he was helping me, noticed that the washer cycle was done and yelled to me that he would put the load in the dryer. I yelled back that since it was a combined load to make sure he took the boy’s T shirts out or they’d shrink. He said sure -and that was it.

Until I went to get the laundry from the dryer later  and pulled out all my son’s white T’s. You guessed it-so I called hubby on it and he said “oh, I checked but they all looked like G’s shirts, so I didn’t take anything out.”

OK so he looked and thought the T shirts for my 11 year old daughter would fit my 16 year old son who is pushing 6 ft 2? 

Let the real yelling begin…this time though, he pushed back and screamed back that it was enough -after I griped a few times about really looking, and why would I bother to tell him to take stuff out unless I knew there was stuff to take out? Get my logic? Another one of those “it would’ve been better that he didn’t help, thanks but no thanks yadda yadda moments.

Stupidest argument ever. But he conceded that if the boy noticed that stuff shrank, just to blame his dad.

Uh, no shit.

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It’s beginning to look a lot like

I need to get cracking on the preparations. Will keep you posted on finds.

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“Arrival” with the family

We went to a matinee today.  All four of us, together, in the same theatre at the same time.  A rarity.  Most Saturdays we are scattered, the kids out with their friends, me and the husband running errands, doing stuff around the house.  Shopping for wine.

I thought it would be years before we would want to see the same movie together again.  The last one was Despicable Me 2, and both the boy and the man promptly fell asleep mid-way.  Truth be known, I nodded off myself for a couple minutes at some point, as I recall.  The only one who didn’t miss a beat was my daughter – after all she was the one with a minion T shirt.

Today was fairly spontaneous – I got a call from my son while driving my daughter back from dance class, asking if we wanted to go out for lunch and a movie, the whole family together.  This was fantastic because 1) it was such a great idea and 2) it was my son who made the call.  He would normally rather be doing anything else – he’s 16.

We’d all seen the trailer  and the movie reviews for Arrival which opened last week – they were almost unanimously excellent (Rotten Tomatoes 100% for the first week, which I have never seen.).

The verdict?  All of us were blown away.  

What struck me is that while it could be classified as Sci-Fi, I certainly saw it more as a philosophical drama about humanity, communication and love.  Even if the visitors looked like a cross between elephants and squids.  Amy Adams continues to astound me with her talent, playing a smart, strong woman, a worldwide expert, and a mother. A grieving mother – every scene with her daughter brought tears to my eyes.  Even Jeremy Renner was convincing as a scientist.

It’s a thinking movie that I think will sit with me for a while.

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Fashion Friday -sort of

“Mommy, some of the girls at school wear shoes like yours.”

“These shoes? These Stan Smiths?”

“Yeah, those.”

“I must be cool then.”

“Yeah, you’re pretty cool”

At one point in my blogging evolution I thought I might try a hand at being a fashion blogger. If this attempt is any indication, I have some work to do.

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Pick a year, any year 

One of the best things in 2009 was the Blogher conference in Chicago that I was fortunate enough to attend.  I became the  most extroverted of introverts and was able to finally meet some of the fantastic writers beyond the screen, people who I’d never met IRL but felt like I had known forever.

Amongst a sea of women there were a few special guys that I finally got to be in the same room with, and one was Adam, a hilarious no holds barred comedian/lawyer (yeah he’s pretty smart for a smart ass. ) Through the magic of Facebook I have managed to stay in touch/ be nosy about…and occasionally pick up something fun to write.

So courtesy of Adam who gave me the year 1996, let’s see where life has brought me:

The year was 1996:

Age: 31

Age now: 51

Relationship: married
Now: still married, same guy (I know we’ve been together a looooooooong time)

Living in: A small 900 square foot detached baby blue !!  house in Bloor West village, Toronto. Galley kitchen,lane parking , hell in the winter, we were always stepping over each other but it was ours.
Now: The burbs half an hour north of T. Dot, the Six. I know, burbs-never say never people.

Pets: zero point zero

Now: Dog Cody-cutest Shih Tzu on the block but an absolute shit when he goes Pesci on some people during our walks. Adopted him 4 years ago-no regrets.

Was I happy:  Generally, still in honeymoon stage before we embarked on our fertility journey…

Now: Yes, I’m in a good place with my family and life in general.

Kids: zero point zero

Now: Liam is 16, Giselle is almost 12.

Job:  Project manager in scientific affairs in Pharma 

Now: Mom/consultant in Pharma-biotech/on hiatus-ish

Car: Honda Accord 

Now: Infinity JX35 (also never say never about minivans cuz I’ve done that too)

Tattoos: temporary henna when I thought I was funky
Now: nope, thought about it and now it would just sag so what’s the point?

Comment on this and I’ll give you a year. 🙂

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The saddest TV ending

Relying on another Blogher NaBloPoMo prompt-which TV series finale are you upset about and why?

For me in recent years, it had to be Parenthood. 


(Image from NBC.com)

I was so addicted to that show, so tied to those characters every week. And although it was not unexpected and very much foreshadowed throughout the last couple seasons, the patriarch’s death was still hard to take.  There was such finality to it  and they also then quickly wrapped up several storylines, it happened in super short order – it was almost too trite.  

Still, it was a great program that I feel never really got its due, despite all the great acting and plot line . It seemed family life was not so sexy or attention grabbing at the time.

This is why I am really glad that one of the best hits in the new season, This Is Us, is doing so well.  Family values, focusing on non-traditional families with real world problems.  Interesting that both are NBC shows-we need to thank whoever is in charge of programming.

In today’s world it’s a fantastic thing.

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This was me in 2016

“This is me in Grade 9 baby, this is me in grade 9” (BNL circa 1992)

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Yikes. Looking at this, I can only say “hang in there, just watch, in about 40 years, things will be interesting and amazing”.

And this was me in 2016:

Stressed but pumped to start out the year, getting on stage. Excited but nervous; working like crazy. Annual company meetings are like that. Away from my family for a week. Conflicted.

Dealing with the transition in the household with my right hand helper moving to part-time just as my travel schedule picked up. Away from family for a week at a time every couple of weeks with no end in sight. Guilt ridden.

I was done.

The cloud lifted. The summer was full of lazy days shuffling the kids around to their friends, catching up with my own friends. Getting my fit on. Being able to drop things at a minute’s notice for the kids rather than having to yell at them over Skype from Europe.

Still rather conflicted, but no guilt in sight.

Because more travel this year has been WITH my family. Skiing in Tremblant; sun and sand and water park in Atlantis with the kids while they still enjoy being with us and each other. A lovely trip with good friends and hubby in Tuscany; wine tasting and couple time in Prince Edward County and Eastern Townships.

A new school year, and lo and behold we are now in November. And I have done nothing with the side table that I am supposed to paint. Nor with the powder room that I’m supposed to DIY something with. Looking forward to Christmas.

Dear 14-year-old me, you will be in a good place.  And there will be donuts.

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Home Movies

Okay rant over.

As I struggle to come up with content for my NaBloPoMo challenge and wonder why it seemed so easy to write non stop all those years ago, I realize it’s because the focus of this blog is supposed to be more about me, and less about them.  I started out as a “mommy blogger” and ended up wanting to be a bit of an influencer, and then mid life whacked me and I decided to write again as a way to rediscover me, myself and I.

Apparently there’s not much to discover.  At least not worth blogging about at any great length for now.

And it’s hit me.  I can’t write without focusing on my family, my kids. They are such a fundamental part of who I am.  They are always top of mind, before anything else. I have to give in – I can’t not write about them.  Their stories are what make me laugh, cry, worry, all that good stuff that life brings.  So I will no longer fight it.

It was an atypical Sunday evening last night, in that both kids were home for dinner and we were eating together. Not at the kitchen table, but in the family room, where we watched a couple of shows together and then my daughter suggested we put some DVDs on of when she was a baby.

When I was home the first time around, I took video of the kids.  For the first year, it seemed like I did so every. Single.  Day.  That’s a lot of footage.  The beauty of it is that we can all watch and laugh and appreciate the early days of us being a family of four. It is indeed beautiful to watch.  It makes me appreciate both the kids, and yes indeed  in particular my little boy, who was full of charm, hilarity, personality and just so happy, happy, happy.

The wonderful thing is that he is still a happy boy/ man child.  It’s easy to forget in the day to day, that despite all the annoying little nonsensical stuff I complain about, he’s pretty much an ideal son.  I need to remember that, and knock on wood, count my lucky stars, all of that – hope that we continue to have a close relationship.

One thing that makes me love him even more?  He rocks it as a big brother and has from Day 1.  Love.

 (taken from year one up, last shot almost 10 years ago).

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The art of the nag

The one thing I have always been conscious of since becoming a wife and mother, is the element of the nag.  It is always my intention that the first gentle reminder should suffice.  That when the reminder is for THAT said person’s benefit rather than my own, there would be sufficient sense of urgency on their part that I wouldn’t have to repeat said reminder – ad nauseum to the point where I risk making myself sick by sounding like a broken record.

Unfortunately I have experienced more than my fair share of bouts of nausea related to nagging. And I hate it.

Especially as a parent;  where is the motivation, the sense of urgency, the plan??  Am I just too accommodating, doing too much for the kids, should I let them go off and drop the ball so they come to their own senses?  It’s a catch 22;  we want them to succeed, we hope that they challenge and take things on themselves to get ahead in life.  Why isn’t the internal urge to act, to put things in motion, ingrained in the boy by now?  I’m continually chasing down, making arrangements, reminding him to get his act together, to get this plan of his going without me having to check up on him all the time?

When I was his age, my parents had no clue what I was taking in school, how much money I was making through my part-time work teaching piano, what I was having for lunch.  I had my own spending money, I made my own way around places with my friends, I brought home good grades and gave my parents no headaches.

Don’t get me wrong, my son has great character, is a sweetheart, kind human being who is generous with his spirit and good humor.  He’s a good boy – just seems he’s a lot of talk and only doing things for me, rather than for himself.  Where is his inner drive?

I ask myself whether my expectations are too high, but I’m pretty sure they’re not.  Get good grades, study, get some extracurricular activities in particular his Lifeguarding plans, under his belt, so he can get experience and make some money for himself. He only has to help me take the garbage out once a week – that is it for home. He has yet to complete half of his volunteer hours which could have easily been completed the last couple of years before his course load got tougher.  I pay for his phone.

There is freedom to make his own plans during the week, and go out with friends on weekends.  He tells me when he has tests and assignments and as far as I can see he is studying and doing homework.  I know that he is still developing and growing up, I just struggle with how best to help him without doing everything for him.  He is more than capable of doing this – I can even cite that his friends seem able to do things beyond just school.

It’s all rather frustrating.

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Lazy Saturday

Coffee, facebooking (a noun?), contemplating a workout, planning a UFC viewing get together, and a closeup shot of my dog, who is a bit stinky and in desperate need of a groom.

Because he is so cute.
That is all.

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